I'd like to a few minutes and talk
about what being a geek means to me. I could spend hours whining
about how hard life was growing up, how painful it was to be
different, how I was mistreated. That will be another post on a day
that I am feeling down and sorry for myself. Today is not that day.
To be honest, it was a GORGEOUS Missouri day. It was breezy and just
warm enough to stay cool even in direct sun. It would have been the
PERFECT lazy hammock day, if my hammock was up and I had time to
kill. Instead, I clipped coupons. When I could not stand it any
longer, I hopped on Pinterest......straight the the geek boards!!!
It is on these boards that I find some
of the most touching pieces of fan art and quotes. These pins help me
see there is still some humanity left in the world. It's not all
crazy, judgmental and hateful. We have not had tv in two years, and
after seeing some of the stories online, I am thankful. The world is
such a nasty place sometimes. I am an optimist who looks for good in
everything, but sometimes it is hard, so hard.
That is why I LOVE being a geek. The
stories I read, the shows I watch, the games I play and the movies I
love all have the same theme. That theme to me is hope in face of
adversity. Occasionally the bad guys do win and the day is ruined,
but hope is not defeated. It stays, maybe unseen, but always there.
It stays with me, through the characters I adore and admire. It fuses
itself tighter to me each story and telling, even when it seems
absent, it's there. This hope is contagious and transfers to other
aspects of my life. It causes me to look at things a different way.
Where some see a situation that is desolate, I see the tiniest
glimmer of hope. It may be buried under dirt and ruble or painful
memories and scars, but it's there. It never abandons us. This is
what being a geek means to me, who being a geek has made me become. I
am thankful for that every day.
